It is around the corner, next year. And I believe that I'm ready. This year is going to bring a lot of changes and challenges, I feel that I'm ready not because I know how I'm going to handle it, but because I know where I have been and what I was doing in the past year. I know what were my challenges and how they pushed me forward, and I know what it is that I still need to work on. The only thing that I'm worried about is what I don't know that I don't know ( makes sense?)
I know that I worked hard on being a good father and that I did a relatively good job at it. I know that my kids are stable, know their boundaries, feel secure enough to stretch those boundaries, they depend on each other while knowing their own strength, they know how to express love (and anger...) and they are happy most of the time. That has been my goal over the past almost 7 years. Even though I'm not out of the woods yet, there is always more to be done, I feel that they have the right base. That was my main challenge in the past year and it pushed me forward.
I know what I need to work on. When I needed to do something for the kids, nothing stopped me. When it is for ME, it was a different story. my health could wait, my career goals could wait, my personal life could wait. I'm not saying that I regret waiting I'm saying that now I realize that waiting doesn't serve my kids anymore. Now they need other things from me as their dad.It is time to shift my FOCUS. With this realization my WHY is clearer.
WHY am I writing this blog, Why am I pushing to reach more people? To support as many people as I can to lead healthier lifestyle AND to teach my kids to follow their passion.
When My kid's well being is on my mind, I face this new year with more certainty that I'm on the right track.
Thanks to the past year , I know that I need to work on letting go of the fear to fail. To publish even if it is not perfect, to present my life purpose to anyone who can help make it happen; I'm doing it not only for myself, but for my kids as well.
I am worried about what I don't know. How to deal with that? well, I don't know.... When a client answer a question with "I don't know" my reply is "make up something, anything." If I am to makeup something, then I'd say "find mentors, people you trust, talk with then and LISTEN to what they have to say, don't think about it as criticism, think about it another point of view or as a flash light that helps you see what it is that you don't know".
Now, I'm really ready for nest year.